紀實小說系列／給賽姬的情書

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邱比特 Cupidō 愛和愛欲之神─他是維納斯的兒子。 傳說她背上的箭，有可以使任何人相愛的神奇力量…。邱比特最唯美的故事，是他和"賽姬"的故事...由於賽姬是凡人，邱比特不能讓她知道自己的身分，也不能讓她見到自己的模樣，他只在晚上跟賽姬廝守…於是賽姬常被指為是「情婦」的代表。

偶然從youtube上頭聽到美國的A Fine Frenzy的歌聲Almost Lover ，這首歌是她在2007年7月份發行的第一張專輯。聽完後很想"哭"……不知你們聽了以後，會不會有這種感覺…試以Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream…摩擬Cupidō寫一封信給Psyche…

先來聽歌：Almost Lover (A Fine Frenzy )
http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=7LqJ2Hqt3A4

You fingertips against my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted(被回憶縈繞心中)
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy for you
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Dear Psyche：

接完妳的電話，聽到妳爽朗的笑聲…，
我突然想到未來有一天，我可能再也負擔不起，
一個能夠一直給妳提供這樣愉悅笑聲的二人關係？！

我感謝上蒼，為目前自己的幸運心存感激，因為認識妳。
我每天無聊的生活，多了對妳甜蜜的企盼；
因為每個可能的明天的某一刻，我們都可能在某處相遇。

等待太過於焦慮，我用想望妳的好把它佔滿。
我思念妳，空氣中甚至飄忽著妳的氣味…
我想像著妳，某一個晚上我們相擁而眠到天亮…
像個老夫老（少）妻一樣…（瘋狂地作愛？！）

親愛的，我希望有朝一日也能和妳一起「生活」，
因為那正是我最溫暖的幻想。

如果我這樣說，妳會不會寬慰些？
這種感覺我同樣可以持續到回到家後…
畢竟那是二十幾年一條熟悉的路。
如果說我自己的婚姻出了問題才到妳這兒逃避，
把妳當成收容所、我不就成了偷渡客？那對妳我都是不公平的…

這不是誰的戰爭，愛妳至深，我不想讓妳承受這些。
因為自從勾引出妳懷春時期的笑意至今，我就只有感恩。
面對妳的悲憫，我甚至沒有了自我…
這是一段真空的獨白…
妳知道嗎？

我們唯一能做的是──就是對自己誠實。

有開始就有結束，
有一天我們都必須面對！
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream

持續…就是珍惜現在二人共處最美好時刻。

我等待著…等待著妳主動為我寬衣解帶…。
為我，找到自己最歡愉的時光！

Cupidō
2008/01/09